Day 7...

and all i can say is this - EPIC FAIL!!!

ok so more detail is needed, i know..

as you can see by the fact i havent written since day 4, its been fairly uneventful. although thats a bit of a lie as on day 5, i received yet another bunch of huge flowers with only "xxx" on the card..

and day 6 is where i failed on a major scale!
day 6 starts out fairly quiet, dont hear from anyone while im cleaning the house, and while im wiping down the kitchen i have the thought that, 5 days after Mr U/D returns he's yet to make any effort to come n see me, which says to me i dont actually mean that much to him, so that will be the end of that one, i'll talk to him but wont expect anything else to come from it. so i carry on my day.. which consisted of not much else! except i get a message from mr P, asking how my wii fit/ jogging is going.. so i reply.. and we have a brief conversation about my goal to get back on my board.. so really, not a flirty conversation, was all about fitness.
but roll on the evening.. i get a text from J&H telling me he misses me, i get a text from a date i know through a friend who asks if im out (bearing in mind ive not heard from him since the date itself).. and then i get asked my mr u/d if im out that evening.. i didnt reply to J&H or the friend date, but i did reply to mr u/d..
but wait.. if that wasnt bad enough...

mr u/d turns up in the same place im in, and in a nutshell, we hugged, we danced a bit, he tells me he hasnt stopped thinking about me since my email sent in december.. and we had a kiss.

now im fairly sure.. nope, im possitive (!) ive gone against practically every rule i made up for this li'l project, and i know how - that kiss.. if we hadnt done that i think i could've coped with just talking, safe in my own bubble of knowledge that he didnt feel anything more towards me than being friends.

so after further discussion with one of my colleagues in the boardroom we also know as The Pub, i think the rules need to be bent, but only for this particular person.. and why? you might ask..
f*cking good question!!
unlike the others who couldve captured my imagination (which is certainly true if they can do my head in), this one is on a pedestal of his own. after all, i did tell him how i felt so the feelings with this one are fairly strong (i almost sounds like a starwars jedi)...

i think its fair to say that all the time this one's in the same postcode, im not likely to adhere to The Rules, so, the one rule for this one person is simple: i do nothing.. as in, i dont initiate contact or chase him.. but if he contacts me then i am allowed to reply. i have to keep in my head that until he makes it crystal clear how he feels, we are friends and nothing more.

as for J&H, i think its fair to say the flowers are from him, there is a bet on to see if i get more flowers next week! and ive definitely no intention of replying to him, the minute i get into a conversation that'll be it, never ending! and as for mr P, there was no flirting when he asked me about the jogging so i think we can safely say thats not going any further than the good evening i'd had with him.

so as you can see, quite a weekend!