In the beginning....

.. There was me; 2 failed long term relationships entered into the history books (both failed due to someone not being able to keep it in his pants!), followed by many failed dating attempts due to ex-girlfs reappearing, personal issues on their part, or simply just not right, all leading to one man who successfully turned my head and heart upside down who then left the country! (Although here is where i should add that he didnt knock me upside down intentionally - he's just not that clever!)
Fast forward to to this year, yet another failed attempt at a brief relationship of sorts due to Him turning into Jekyll & Hyde (although on my part i'd always had a feeling something wasn't quite right).. and yet another failed date or 2..
..which brings me (and you) to here.. 30, single, and beginning to wonder where i'm going wrong to be attracting "them"..

After much thought and staring at flowers that are possibly from J&H himself, it seemed appropriate to commence Operation FDFN (Forty Days Forty Nights).. loosely based on the film with Josh Hartnett. For those that havent seen it, boy has trouble getting over his ex, sleeps with various dates but has issues doing it, so takes a vow of celebacy for the period of Lent.

So in a nut shell, i have to revert back to the sweet and innocent me of yester-year! I know, hard to believe there was one, but there was, once.

And just how am i going to do this? Well, it's going to involve alot of willpower!
There was the suggestion of changing my number, but then on further thinking, this would just confuse the family and opens a whole can o' worms! And what would happen when i revert back to my original number and turn on the phone? Bang! Messages coming in! So if they're going to come i just as well keep the number anyway!

Which is why i'm starting this blog. I'm going to be totally open and that way you can keep an eye on me. This will be my online diary, any gossip, any messages, anything to do with "Them" will be here.

So, here are "The Rules"..
1/ Any messages from the male of the species will be entered on here, all of them!
2/ I won't be allowed to reply to said messages. I have to totally ignore it. Totally. And for those that know me well enough, this will be tough for li'l tinkerbell here!
3/ No sexual contact with men
4/ No innuendos
5/ No internet dating
6/ No contact with anyone who could be potentially added to "The List"
7/ Anyone on my facebook who could be or is already on "The List" will be moved to a small compartment affectionately called "The List".. (original, i know!) so i wont be able to see them pop up on fb chat.
8/ Rule 7 also applies to my msn!

Obviously i'm open to other suggestions so feel free to suggest

The aim of this li'l operation is to clear my head of all the f*ck ups, concentrate on me for a bit, and come out the other end in a better place without distraction.

And there you have it. Operation FDFN... when you can't wash that man right out of your hair, take it to the next level!

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